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A KIND OF PHOTOSYNTHESIS
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Give me two people, any two, a formula of them, a kind of paint-by-numbers: four legs, two heads, a bucket full of fingers. For kicks, give them the same eyes, like Rodin did; make their mouths the same—for the fun of watching one mouth give in to itself.

Once assembled, put a burn on them, a kind of music that they can’t write down. Let them sit there kissing, those two, falling in love, but—oh—what are we going to do with the rest of it? What can happen that hasn’t already made us sad?

They will keep dying, the whole time, their toes growing into the ground—no need to premeditate it, they already know. Draw their feet on the apartment steps. Yes, the apartment, remember the kitchen filled with smoke? But the cigarette butts—where shall we cram them? How about her mouth, yes, her mouth is like the next room, identical in size, where the bed is, where the guitar is stuffed underneath it. Yes, stuffed under the bed like a fact.

Let these two people listen to the police sirens (draw the ears like blunt knives, yes, scrape both sides of the knife across their faces). Remember the sirens—the ones we made ourselves listen to, the cars flushing down Bushwick Avenue. It goes on all night, like brushstrokes, until everything’s black. Yes, they’re both in bed now, yes, the bodies are crumbled like newspapers.

The light I refused to turn off is on, it stays on, and her eyes linger on his long expanse of leg—that whiteness, the fuzz of his skin suspended over his body. She’s reading, remember, with the same eyes, the ones he sleeps with. But no, she’s going to touch him, she’s reaching there, the thought of it crawling back to her, the smell of sleep pushed into her chest. Her face, her tiny mouth, is close enough to say wake, to feel his hair push across her cheek, but thank God she doesn’t say it. Remember that nothing happens. She holds the word between her teeth, this time like an artist. The silence is making headway.


We know what she’s writing—but who wants to read it? I'll put a purple bloom here instead. I don’t know why it’s purple—but oh—it’s for you. Laugh. Call it a bruise. Call it a kind of photosynthesis. Call it the light that has been eaten.

 
      Aversion
Epithalamium
What Mom Said...
Nandovee
Dear Shithead,
Four Wings
Time and sight...
Not gifs, templates
Silence
Boat
Excuses
No news
Decisions
Chicago
This is a code
Uselessness
Granddad
Crap
Julia Rae
Ten questions
Jumped
"Al"
Soft & thin & ugly
Straight
With feeling
Jill
Road Trip
Camping
Letter in July
Paranoia
On writing
A little angst
Recording
Something real
New Years
Photosynthesis
Reading
"HA"
Bad poet
Not quite a baby
Letter to Sarah
Phoebe is a dog
Spoonbread
Brando
The Inside of the Joke
Jesses
 
 
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